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Winner of the Fall 2020 Black River Chapbook Competition
Dominant Genes, the new hybrid collection from Stonewall Honor author and Lambda Literary Award finalist SJ Sindu, is equal parts power and astonishing beauty, tenderness and shimmering anger, poetry and lyric essays interwoven in a gorgeous exploration of family, heritage, and the construction of nonbinary and queer identities. “We learn our anger through osmosis,” Sindu writes of the inherited rage of South Asian women, “or maybe it’s in the breast milk, spreading through our veins long before we learn how to look only at the floor and walk without showing our ankles.”
There is hope in this collection, and the lead weight of expectation, and warm moments of empathy too. Thematically linked and stylistically nimble, Sindu’s pieces play with the fragmentary nature of memory and identity, her speakers traversing with intelligence and compassion the complexities of mental health, love, and pressurized relationships with the people closest to us—those who love us intensely, even when they understand us the least.
FROM DOMINANT GENES
My Parents Crossed an Ocean and Lost Me
I carved myself a new face. They searched and searched, and found God instead.
They built an altar for God in the office room closet. Sliding doors, LED lights, images of God in all his iterations—Vishnu, Parvati, Shiva, Murugan, even a tiny portrait of Jesus and a bottle of holy water shaped like the Virgin Mary, so as not to leave out the God of their new country.
My parents took to God like they took to America, like they took to money locked in savings accounts. We used to be penniless, stateless, godless. Like country, like money, God was a newish something.
My mother now spends her days praying. She and God have a thing. My father roams the empty rooms, fills them with the voices of angry white pundits on TV.
When I visit, we fight—God and I—for my parents’ affection. We’re siblings born too far apart in age to be friends.